Besan ladoos

 the resulting mixture!!!!

coat your hands with ghee baby : )

roll in your hands: 

 

for me : )

 

I rolled this one : )

 

beautiful ladoos:

 Besan ladoo : )

 

cut canteloupe:

http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5883924?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000063

Yesterday I put my Aveda deep cleansing herbal clay masque that I've had for a long time on my face and fell asleep in front of the fan for like a half hour. My face is so smooth today.

bagel with cream cheese and hot mix on top:

I usually don't like these songs but listening to #marjaani marjaaniiiii marjaani marjaniiiii LMAO!!!!!!!

It's so scary how thin the right one got and that used to be my best eyebrow ....

The upper top portion of the curve of my eyebrow is not as perfect anymore but I noticed that I didn't feel the insane rage I've been feeling about it (and the other one). #got my eyebrows done #no longer have Meena Kumari eyebrows but I realize I'll live #tear

#makin achari paneer

http://www.bbc.com/news/science-environment-29341850

my father's dreams are coming true: http://www.theguardian.com/science/2014/sep/24/india-mars-satellite-successfully-enters-orbit

I am happy to announce that I will not be getting an eye exam at Walmart (what a pain in the arse). I got my lenses replaced in my glasses by a local optical center for $58 and in 20 minutes. The world looks so different after five years of scratches and wear. I can also give them my contacts information and get contacts. Hallelujer.

"My balance is brought about by weighing my need for freedom with my need for friendly fun and sexy times. I balance my need for security with my need for revolution. I balance my need to please with my need to resist what is not right for my life. I balance my need for beauty with my need to be sweetly distasteful." - http://www.chaninicholas.com/autumnal-equinox-libra-new-moon-manifestations/

it's so interesting how it's really not necessary to feel despair and agony yet we human beings do it anyway....

my late afternoon sandwich Indian style: canola oil mayonnaise, a slice of cheddar cheese, tomato and coriander instead of lettuce and bhujia instead of potato chips : )

New Moon Day ~ http://astrologywithjanspiller.com/2014/09/20/new-moon-reminder-wednesday-september-24-libra-214-am-edst/

I'm making my ten wishes today. Years ago I got Jan Spiller's New Moon Astrology Book and it changed my life dramatically. I made wishes for a couple years on the new moon and then stopped for a couple years and I'm getting back into it again. I can feel the Potential and am very Excited : ) ~

Reaffirm on the Full Moon. 

as the excess air came out of my body this morning, I felt all the psychopaths fly out of my right nostril. relief. too much air I tell you. 

what I feel is that psychopaths are severely lacking in the realms of logicality and spatial intelligence and are also interpersonally and intrapersonally maleficient...

#first learned about multiple intelligences sixteen years ago and so happy to be talking about it in class now in modern times #the world is evolving slowly
#I am highly kinesthetic, linguistic, musical and interpersonal
#take your intelligence test at http://www.bgfl.org/bgfl/custom/resources_ftp/client_ftp/ks3/ict/multiple_int/questions/questions.cfm

You are not going to believe what just happened. I had gotten an email from the organization yesterday about how I would receive copies of my clearances when I start training tomorrow. I thought 'fine' whatever at least I'll get them. THEN I got a copy of them via email from the other lady I had originally spoken to. yay!!!! I was very grateful and said I appreciated it and I immediately got everything printed and scanned and RIGHT when I opened my school email account just now, I got an email from the school saying they had a field placement for me but they still needed my clearances. Well guess what I did. I responded that I had just received everything and gotten them scanned and replied happily (and then I noticed that I forgot to add the attachment). So I replied again and said 'sorry please find attached' and ATTACHED my pdf with all my clearances. I cannot tell you how accomplished I feel right now. #wearing my Marine Science Consortium sweatshirt I got from a science to trip to Wallops Island, Virginia in 11th grade #love this sweatshirt

#had gobi pronthee for lunch
#had amazing hot shower with ibuprofen and Dove soap
#event promotion day
#I'm so happyyyyyyyyyy

arrogance is a turd. 

I would like to continue to express how happy I am. So as you know I don't have medical insurance. So since the beginning of the semester my dad has been asking me if I applied for medical insurance from school. I of course kept forgetting and/or wasn't motivated to and I missed applying to the deadline which was yesterday (for fall or annual coverage. I can still apply for spring/summer coverage). Shoot. Anyhoo, after reviewing the policy it turns out to be an utter waste of money to apply for this student insurance which doesn't cover acupuncture, vision, dental, private nursing duty, etc. etc. and I would have to pay $140 a month and also meet a $1400 deductible (much better than the $3500 deductible I had to meet for the medical insurance I had from law school....vomit). Anyhoo, after discussing it with the rents everyone was in agreement that it wasn't worth getting and we'd rather pay out of pocket for the services I need (score!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my life has come full circle on some level....on a side note, my parents' insurance covers my mom's acupuncture treatments.....!!!!!!)

I am extremely happy paying cash for my $60 foot xray, my $78 vision exam at Walmart, $120 for my contacts, [don't know how much it costs] for my lenses, $60/month for acupunture + $10 - $30 a month for herbs, $150 for a chest x ray, $$$ for my gynecological exam and $$$ for my heart checkup.   I'd rather take the $2600++ I will have to pay towards insurance towards directly paying for services and having it count towards something.

I will however be looking into Obamacare as required by dad....

I am the bomb diggity....

Planting your own trees = savings of $400

#everyone in blah mode
#thin crust veggie from Pizza Hut for dinner

#must order charger and battery for Dell Vostro (good god why did I buy this)
#virus in other computer
#where the hell are my songs in iTunes
#rage 

so before I lose my happy feeling before I get lost in the stress of it all, I'd like to express the well-being I'm experiencing. I got my period today (it's all good) and woke up late, but I woke up to Papa at home (I was out last night so I didn't see him yesterday) and methi pronthees on the table yummy! Then I was solidifying plans with my mom about helping her at her jewelry show tomorrow and I was thinking of just finishing my homework today and hangin around. But then guess what happened!! My friend and dancing colleague called me about a gig tomorrow! In a desperate situation students canceled on her so I'm helping out. We are going to perform at Phipps tomorrow for the tropical Indian exhibit festival thingamadoo (I had a feeling I would end up at Phipps tomorrow). So I have to incorporate that into my day tomorrow (yay!!!!). I'm gonna learn a new partner piece and practice my solo today and practice the other two partner pieces we have in our repertoire with my friend tomorrow before our performance time. Papa worked on my laptop and now the parents are gone to Walmart for something (thank God they've been bickering and fighting all day which kinda ruins the happiness feeling but alas that is life) and I'm drinking my second cup of cochin masala chai. Community, art and celebration this is what I love. I'm such a sappy Libran.

Methi (fenugreek leaves) pronthee with whole wheat flour for lunch (and a little bit of besan to add a little protein):

the library is closing now : ( no more time extensions : (

I got my textbook!!!!!!!!!!

Atta halwa - another treat you get when you go to heaven #prasad

there's nothing like coming home in the evening, making a cup of tea and settling down with your laptop, a blankie and homework to do....this is peace....very happy this way..

I'm not your effing therapist!!!!!!!!!!!

#temper
#grief
#DairyQueen

#boobsbloated (I have somehow exploded to a size F....I am terrified)
#marketing
#chillyoutside
#sosleepy
#teatime

this is what the khichadi looks like in your bowl with pieces of yogurt in it after you've eaten most of it:

only problem is you can't talk out loud to yourself or other imaginary people or guffaw out loud in the library #makin an effort to be self conscious (this is too much work)

And I just canceled my Amazon order of my textbook which has not been shipped yet!!!! And ordered it from Barnes & Noble and they promised it'll arrive at my house in a week or less. 

and my arm still REALLY hurts from the tb test on Friday....luckily I'm not sick and thankfully the chest x ray proved it....had a massive headache and was terribly tired on Saturday and I think I had an out of body experience..

Both of my laptops are broken. Lord.

....I'm going down to the liiiiibrary.....gonna say hi to the dictionary, gonna check a book check it in check it out..lmao

#saw Hundred Foot Journey with Maasi
#nice pms movie 

we are not happy about the multichoiceinsurance.com commercial on StarPlus. we think that commercials featuring grandfathers faking heart attacks in front of their grandchildren should be outlawed. #disturbed

#amazing bhangra workout this morning

#Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham on Star Plus - I can't stand Mr. Raichand. what a meanie: kyaa yeh ladki hamare sanskar hamare sanskriti samajh paye gee?!??!!! good god the girl ain't from the Phillippines she Punjabi good lord..

http://www.16personalities.com/

I'm INFP (Introvert, Intuitive, Feeling, Perceiving) : )

Life's a turd. But unfortunately one must live it.

pit stop at Patel Bro:

1 14oz Haldiram Bhujiya - $3.49
1 14oz Deep Hot Mix - $3.49
1 16oz Deep Taramind Date Chutney - $4.99
1 cilantro - 69 cents
another one - 69 cents
1 2lb yellow onion - $1.99

and a run in with Maasi : )

total: $15.34

#why do I feel like I'm about to go to jail .. Off to get my physical done. Glad I had cheese shells last night. It's what I grew up with and it might be my last meal in Earth. 

and I still haven't gotten my one textbook in the mail!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I told my professor a couple weeks ago that I didn't have my book yet so he said to go to any library and read the textbook so I don't fall behind. I searched for this book amongst all the Allegheny, Fayette, Westmoreland and Washington county libraries and the only library that had it was the Pitt Hillman library. So I went there today (today was such a bad day I can't tell you). I couldn't check it out because I am not a Pitt student and neither does the library have reciprocity with California University or Westmoreland County Community College. My Carnegie Library card doesn't work either. I was offered a guest card which would cost $100. However, if I was a paid alumnus I would get for $50 or even $25. I ended up scanning quite a few pages of the book for free and emailed them to myself but then I stopped because I thought it was pointless. I didn't want to read the book in the library and absorb the information in my head because I felt desirous like an old, white man fart and wanted to sit at my office desk or chair and have my own copy and read it. I did think though that if I was reading it in the library I could get my assignment done on the computer simultaneously but as a guest I was allowed no access to the Internet. (and then I had these thoughts like what the fuck am I doing I am gonna fucking kill someone). 

Someone tried hacking into my gmail account from Houston TX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The nice thing about this new tutoring gig is that they are paying for the clearances!!!! And I am getting a much better pay and a routine schedule. How nice. They are also paying for my physical, drug test and so forth. I've never done drugs so I have no worry there. This makes me feel like there may be some hope in the world. What I'm planning is once the clearances come back from the organization, I'm going to get copies and then forward them to the University. The University found my earlier copies of my clearances unacceptable because they were over a year old. I hate how the state government has its own rules and organizations and universities have their own rules. Child abuse clearances are good for two years unless there is a break in unemployment according to the Dept. of Education. However, the University wants them every year. Fine. But then I have to find the budget to get them and attend to the University emails (my school account which I did not check in June or July) with fifty thousand exclamation marks asking the students to get the clearances completed. Well. I'm kinda on a budget and since you're not paying for them it may take time on my part. Anyhoo, I'm hoping my Act 33/34 clearances come back by tomorrow because they are due at the University by tomorrow. They come back much faster to organizations than to invididuals - good thinking on my part : )

The other annoying thing is that I cannot use my fingerprinting results across departments. My fingerprinting for the Department of Public Welfare was paid for by the 'tutoring' organization but I cannot use the same fingerprints for the Department of Education which is what the University wants. I had to pop out $28.75 to get my fingers massaged for one minute (last year I paid thirty something can't remember). Moreoever, the University requires the unofficial letter regarding the fingerprinting. The fingerprinting lady told me that in actuality, no organization/whatever is supposed to have any evidence, let alone paper evidence, of your fingerprints. You're supposed to give your PAE number and they can look you up. The University (and this other organization actually) wants the unofficial letter that is going to take a couple weeks to get in the mail. Lord I am not getting paid enough to do this. 

Administrative work is not my forte. Renewed my library cards yesterday and getting more clearances done today. I am shocked at myself. 

And I need new lenses on my glasses jeez Louise..

#oilchangedone only 800 miles overdue this time $34.08
#few groceries $32.28
#dueforaneyeexam and contacts $78 + $$$
#eatincrackers

http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5753880?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000063

Bday dinner with friends. I gave the birthday boy a Ganesh ji post card. Indeed we are getting older as we give each other religious gifts now: 

Khichadi (lentils and rice)

 makin Khichadi: lovely to eat when you want to keep things basic. measure two karchis (two big tbsps) of green split moong daal in a bowl:

  

measure one katori (small bowl) rice and add to bowl:

 I put too much so I took some out and put it in a plastic bag for use later:

 rinse rice and lentils a couple times:

fill pressure cooker with about 70% water:

add rice and lentils: 

add less than a teaspoon salt:

add a little shredded ginger:

put lid on pressure cooker:

cook on medium for 20 to 30 minutes. then rinse pot under the faucet with cold water to cool pot down. open pressure cooker carefully.

add jeera (cumin seeds) thank (see recipe) and eat. you can add a scoop of yogurt on top to make it yummy and creamy:

I just watched The Horrors of Forced Sterilization in America for class and I am thoroughly traumatized: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y3B-GUEvc-c&feature=related

Too awesome: http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5730080?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000063

got a new microwave installed today in the kitchen....all the buttons work!!!! #don't need to manipulate the microwave buttons anymore

I am Death Personified and I wear the same bloody black comfy pants every day #four pairs of jeans in my closet I can't fit into #booty needs to breathe #live a Zen life: http://m.fastcompany.com/3034930/hit-the-ground-running/4-odd-yet-effective-ways-the-smartest-people-prioritize-their-days?partner=rss

Too awesome: http://m.huffpost.com/ca/entry/5738602?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000063

See this is what happens when you don't have a sex routine. You have to have a schedule so there is order: http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5767148?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000063

#I love dance classes where I hardly dance and tell you what to do 

there's no heaven like getting massaged with ghee #thanksmom

another interview : ) joy : )

I ate my veggie pulao for dinner (rice w peas) without yogurt. #slept all day #drinking lemon water

Oh wait that's old news sorry..

Oh my god: http://www.people.com/people/mobile/article/0,,20809053,00.html

pronthee immersed in kyoo (ghee)....one instantly is able to breathe as the oil soothes the chest....special treat for the ill yum

#why does my haircut price increase by a dollar every time I go
#time for an oil change
#blah

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-160PFUogeI

yay! Interview scheduled for later this week : ) Some Americans are so nice : ) 

#don't know whether to put a sweater on or to jump in the pool
#tree in the backyard fell
#chickennoodlesoup

Makki di Roti: this is roti made from cornmeal. when you die and go to heaven, this is what you get : ) so delish. will review the process later.

yum: turn over with your fingers. there's a reason why aunties have lost all feeling in the tips of their fingers:

beautiful roti:

ready to go:

chai with fennel seeds, carom seeds and cardamom seeds.

THEN add the milk lol:

Eggplant (Bhartha)

cook onion, garlic, green chile and fresh tomato in oil. 

actually first roast the eggplant in oil on the pan. forgot to take a picture earlier:

here is the roasted eggplant:

cut up eggplant:

viral cutting:

add eggplant to mixture as well as salt, red mirchi and very little garam masala (coriander and cumin powders):

mix and cook:

I'm not a big fan of eggplant and mom is allergic to it so this is my portion. dad can have the rest:

Coriander chutney

Onion, coriander, one big green chile, salt, red mirchi, a little cumin powder and lemon juice. add a little mint if you want to:

beautiful chutney: 

Voila:

green chiles from the Indian store:

Also splurged on Ultraband cleanser and Breath of Fresh Air toner at Lush :P. I still have Dark Angels left!!!!!