for lunch now I eat the most amazing bean sprout veggie sandwich: mustard, coriander, tomato, green pepper, mozzarella cheese, bean sprouts and jalapeño. w veggie chips. only 130 calories in 38 chips. and I only eat like 16 chips. 

Last night like every other night, I had thoughts around 2am when I went to bed like 'ok tomorrow I'm gonna get up at 9:15, chai, meditation, start laundry, get on the elliptical then shower, emails, then work from 12 to 6, finish laundry, dinner, Facebook, then work then go to bed. It's noon and all I've done so far is drink chai and watch a little Rachael Ray and The View and seethe in anger about humanity and am just now going to start laundry and email my professor. It's going to be a long week. 

Breathe deeply while completing tasks. All 'to dos' related to work, family, art, social and health related should be managed with a calm mind. Spend time with yourself and your friends especially if you're single to feel sane. Understand that the amount of work to be done will always feel overwhelming and the work will be waiting for you like a hungry child. You may feel massive amounts of guilt for not being able to attend to all hungry children. Focus on one thing at a time while you simultaneously organize everything. 

Aloo Stuffed Green Peppers

peel 5 or 6 Idaho potatoes, wash and then cut cubicle style:

there can be no remaining brown spots. so peel further and then wash again: 

beautiful cubicle style potatoes:

add salt and coriander:

and red mirchi (spice) and garam masala (coriander and cumin):

mix: 

cut green pepper to store the aloo mixture:

stuff the green peppers as much as you can:

beautifully stuffed green peppers: 

then drizzle oil around the corners and in the middle. cover with aluminum foil and bake on 350 degrees for an hour and a half or so: 

all done: 

Aloo Tikki

Aloo Tikkis are a yummy appetizer. Boil potatoes (8 or 9?), cut up and add two small chopped onions:

add coriander leaves and salt: 

also add red mirchi (spice) and garam masala (coriander and cumin):

crush anardana (pomegranate seeds) in a mortar and pestle:

also prepare paneer (can buy this at the Indian store) and mash up:

add salt, red mirchi (spice) and garam masala (coriander and cumin):

add crushed anardana seeds:

also add pieces of bread to the potato mixture and then mash the whole mixture:

then prepare the pedal (dough ball) like this:

add a little of the mashed up paneer:

then roll it all into a pedi (dough ball):

then cook on the pan:

beautiful tikkis:

incredibly delicious with green chutney on top:

yummy:

can also eat with chhole (chick peas):

I am overjoyed by the news that now all same-sex couples have a right to marry in the US. I had made a commitment years ago that I wouldn't get married until all people in this country had a right to marry. This news is much needed after a long period of discouragement for many and especially after my faith in humanity was struggling. I feel again now that Light can truly overcome the darkness. Peace <3 http://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2015/06/26/417717613/supreme-court-rules-all-states-must-allow-same-sex-marriages?sc=17&f=417717613&utm_source=iosnewsapp&utm_medium=Email&utm_campaign=app

epiphany: http://www.theastrologyplace.uk/2014/06/jupiter-in-8th-house.html

http://gothamist.com/2015/06/24/whole_foods_ripoff.php

Today the university emailed me and told me that no, I don't need to take four prerequisites, not one prerequisite, but indeed I need to take EIGHT physics prerequisites in order to be teacher certified in physics. What brilliance I get to deal with. I had agreed to take the initial four prerequisites because that's what they told me and that affected my decision to apply at this program. I feel like transferring or dropping out of this nonsense.

'Here's the church, here's the steeple. Open the doors, and see all the peeple.'

I am starting to feel nervous about the Venus retrograde coming up end of July. We are going to need to control our haarmones people. Very nervous. 

#after a semi-drunk weekend, I'm having feelings again....thank the Lord I thought I lost the ability to have feelings....

http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/7589878?utm_hp_ref=women&ir=Women&ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000046

My professor told me that she finds it interesting that I identify with being bilingual rather than being an English language learner. epiphany. 

Who the hell is sargeant monica and why the hell does she wanna have a private discussion with me..stop emailing me good god

for the first time in my life, I noticed how much of a mess the house is in. lord. it's even giving me anxiety. 

http://www.npr.org/sections/goatsandsoda/2015/06/16/414724767/people-are-finally-talking-about-the-thing-nobody-wants-to-talk-about

oh today is the new moon! #new moon wishes 

#got my period

I am in so much pain today. I was up late last night finishing an assignment and then woke up late today and spent nearly one hour in the shower and now laying on my bed with a hot water bottle and three Advil finally kicking in. I think maybe because I didn't go to acupuncture my last cycle or because of stress, I'm having this much pain. ugh. I'm in such a bad mood, don't want to talk or see anybody and have homework due tonight. I had to delay my travel plans for my sister's graduation because of this. I just can't imagine sitting in pain for hours in the car and then having to read at the same time. But these are the moments for which I'm eternally grateful: when I don't have to travel in pain and I can do my work peacefully in solitude in bed. 

Food Rules for Indian events:

No naans
No mango lassi
No samosas
No kachori
No aloo 

; ) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7pYHN9iC9I

Squash Subjee

peel and cut squash: 

cook in olive oil, add roasted red peppers, salt and red mirchi: 

yummy:

This week was a good week and a not so good week. It was a good week cause I got paid after my work was done which made me smile really wide and I felt good about myself. I felt like I could be a nicer human being. This concept of getting paid right after your work is done is like something you have to work really hard towards and when you accomplish that, it's like you achieved something. It was not so great cause I got sick. I think I mistakenly used my sister's toothbrush last weekend (but I think she used mine) and she already claimed that her presence got me sick so yea, cough, congestion, stuffy nose all of that. My energy was so low. Anyway, I continually to be amazed by all the hard working people in this world who work so hard to survive and secure and provide. My heart really aches for them and I keep learning, growing and doing my duty because of them. #blessed 

Today's calorie count:

1 Kashi granola bar: 140 cal

1 napa almond chicken salad sandwich: 340 cal
broccoli cheddar soup (please don't kill me): 220 cal

1 Starbucks shortbread cookies: 170 cal
milk in tea/coffee: 50 cal

5 Ritz crackers: 80 cal (whoa!!!!!!!! not doing that again)
some cheese: 60 cal
1 apple: 60 cal
1tbsp sunflower seed butter: 100 cal
1 ginger brew: 130 cal
two chicken kabobs: 60 cal
subjee and daal w one slice of multigrain bread (without the crust <cringe>): 320 cal

total: 1730 (oh man, yesterday was a better day)

calories burnt: 380

Mixed Subjee

roast cumin seeds in olive oil then add green pepper, cook for a little bit:

add frozen carrots and peas (basically we added green pepper to make it more interesting):

then add salt, garam masala, turmeric and red mirchi:

cover and cook for a while : ) add a little water later on:

mixed subjee:

Someone posted something on fb that said 'would you slap your mom for two million dollars' 😂😂😂😄😄 Lmao!!

and she emailed the syllabus to us before the start of class like 10 ten days ago!!!!!!!! so I got my textbook in time : ) 

my one professor this semester has made all the materials and assignments due in class available for those of us who would like to work ahead around our schedules. I would like to make love to her but that would be illegal. 

paan ice cream. absolutely incredible. after kyoo drenched halwa and a ladu. luckily I had no naans all weekend. 

: )

my henna from this evening : ) 

pistachio and mango ice cream!

instructions for my outfit tonight: black eyeliner, smaller earrings and no bindi. ok darling. off we go. 

cutting flowers for a brother's garland : ) 

some of the leaves fell on the floor and this was totally unacceptable ~

however, mom, there's something called a jhadoo and the floor can easily be cleaned up!! isn't that grand ; )

aj saare unde dunde khaalo..

http://www.bbc.com/news/magazine-26260978

so one of my professors that I have this summer said the following in her syllabus: 'Please Understand YOU EARN the grade you receive!! Think of your grade as a paycheck and even a bonus check; the better the learning and quality, the higher the grade.' Honestly, I don't understand how this would be motivating.