What a horrible day. I was in the middle of taking a quiz and the Internet stopped working. Even the apartment building Internet was not working and I learned that Comcast was not functioning in the area. I wanted to kill something especially since I had another issue yesterday with this trash of a University I am studying at virtually. My dad is also sick of doing the taxes and we are thinking of investing in a punch bag. I thought ok let me go to a local library or Starbucks at least I can do my work and lo and behold, the car was not working. No battery. How did this happen?!????!?!!! So I called my dad about to have another panic attack and he ended up coming home early cause I needed the car to do my hw. Now we are calling AAA. Thankfully now the Internet is working and I can finish another goddamn assignment due by midnight tonight. #made enchiladas and ate early cause I thought I had to go to Starbucks.

I want to hurl. I have such a bad headache and want more ibuprofen. Thankfully the machine that loads the money on your laundry card is working now so I was able to put money on the card and do my laundry and I just put the bathroom mats in there too. 

3 Daal

so today I'm making daal. this daal is 1/3 channa daal, 1/3 split moong (green) and 1/3 maa kee daal (black). my dad soaked this over night but he never measures anything so I hope there's enough water in there. start boiling on high, then medium  and then add salt and haldi : )

sorry not sure what happened with the rest of my pictures..will update..

#Uranus and Venus retrograding together

amazing french toast I made. we have no syrup so I put raspberry jelly and walnuts on top : )

Dad's amazing omelette ~ 

Last night, I had a dream that I was in some sort of downtown early in the morning and I was looking straight at a tall clock against a backdrop of very dark, billowing clouds that said it was 5am. This dream just confirms my fear of waking up early in the morning. 

#Tanu weds Manu....soh gayee kudi....

amazing find: brown rice crackers - http://www.target.com/p/simply-balanced-gluten-free-multi-seed-brown-rice-crackers-3-5-oz/-/A-14575657

I don't understand why my mom behaves like I'm going to kill her when it comes to hair removal. I just waxed her upper lip and she was so dramatic. 

And I am so upset because I was told to attend a teaching seminar this weekend and made sure with the institution earlier this summer that I had to attend after giving them all the facts. I made sure because I could have made other plans for the weekend. After emailing them last week about my stay this weekend asking if there was any on-campus housing left, I suddenly got a response saying (FROM THE SAME PERSON) that I did not have to attend the seminar.

WHHHAAAAATTTTTTTTTTHEHHEH FFUKCHGIHEIGKKKKK. And then another email came which has a miserable representation of the reality of my physics prerequisites situation. What on earth. Am I being paid to do this, including the studying, or am I the one paying? And now I have to redo an assignment (after already redoing one before) along with the other two assignments, an assignment already late, and a final project due for the same class, a huge project and quiz due for another class, along with doing whatever I have to do so I can have some goddamn money in my bra. I have no motivation. To transfer or not to transfer, that is the question?

I mean do you know how many Punjabis were originally expecting me to dance this coming weekend at their party and I had to shoot them down. Do you know how disappointed they are? I didn't visit them a year and a half ago like I said I would and after seeing them recently I was told that 'that was so not cool.' In any case now, I have to spend the whole weekend now working on these gifts from heaven. I am going to the gym right now because I am just too angry to work. 

Omg this use to happen to me all the time when I was younger and happens to me periodically. What I recommend is if you're stuck in sleep paralysis, get yourself to start breathing really hard. Your chest will then start moving up and down and then eventually your body will move or your able to twitch hard enough to snap out of it. Unfortunately though you do have to wait it out at times. Ugh: http://lockerdome.com/tre/6170042811288129/7785059432268049?ts_pid=2&ts_pid=2

I can't tell you how delicious dinner was today. excellent melding of flavors: 

I made this amazing pulao today. w cashews and raisins: 

http://www.buzzfeed.com/karimasanela/paneer-tum-hi-ho

I hate shaving my legs. 

#swimming afternoon 

Unfortunately today as I was cleaning the bathroom, I slipped and fell and banged my head on the wall. I was upset for five minutes and cried. Reminds me of a hilarious story of my friend's: one day she was at home in the bathroom. She got her period and after taking a shower, she fainted. When she woke up, she saw her dad laying beside her crying 'God take me instead.' LMAO 

I finally found my husband : )

Family and friend stuff can be overwhelming sometimes. I've decided to invest time this week in some body work. Even though in general my mind can drift off in conversation unintentionally (my brain tunes out on its own), it's come to a point where I've noticed I'm really having trouble paying attention. #gym and yoga 

#paande kadi khatham naae honde lord..

#paan liqueur (it tastes like it has vodka in it : \ )

#massive headache 

life of a student - eating, watching movies, studying, sleeping, eating, watching movies, studying, sleeping, eating, watching movies, stressing out, sleeping....

lychees : ) 

It's 4am and I have to leave in 5 hours. I can't sleep and my lower back is as usual killing me. I'm starting to obsess over my bad luck in romance (it's time to take a break from analyzing terrorism). I have such bad love and car karma (although that has been improved). I can't actually cry so I'm fake crying. Sometimes whining out loud in private helps. Some people are always mad at me. Why is Mars always mad at me. 😢😢😢😪😪😭😭

Mr. Darcy is SO angrifying!!!!!!!!!! God  I just U*(*&(^%$%$#&^T*&(* ARGH!!!!!!

I just finished some leftover chicken from the freezer and as I'm feeling my cramps, I felt a moment where I was able to control.. I don't know what to call it but it's like moments of black hole anxiety or pain. I feel lost during those moments but I just felt a sense of groundedness where it was like a not feeling lost in a place I can't define. I'm having pain but I can Be. I'd like to move forward from this sense of groundedness.

oh no....I missed Auntie ji's call....and she didn't leave a message....

It's interesting because I could not close the browser or even force quit or even restart my computer. I was completely stuck. So I called the number on the screen because the website told me to and I think ended up talking to a Hispanic Auntie ji who sounded like your local auntie. Of course she wanted me to pay $450 to install the webfoot secure anywhere software which is the most recommended antimalware software and to work on my computer for four to six hours. I kinda felt like she understood the way I was speaking and was patient but I sensed a little anger near the end when I said I don't want to pay right now I'd like to talk to my dad about it. She negotiated it down to $400. Her name of course was Mary and she said she is going to call me tomorrow to follow up. I am going to have a very lovely conversation with her ; )

Unfortunately today I suffered the infiltration of a virus on my Macbook today causing of course delays. Thank God I did not have a discussion board post due tonight in my class. Argh: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/02/19/apple-java-update-mac-download-security_n_2720300.html

Here is the update if you need it: https://support.apple.com/en-us/HT202225

epiphany: Ochocinco is gay 

Now I understand why women get frustrated when buying vegetables in India....#growing old 

I hope I'm finally nearing mastering the energy of my Moon inconjunct Pluto. Pluto in Libra at 24 degrees inconjunct Moon in Taurus at 24 degrees. 

Sometimes in meditation (or all the time) we feel feelings that are very nasty and uncomfortable. Don't judge the feelings and stay with it and over time, they will become less intense. It sucks but it's unavoidable. Healing the pain body is not easy.