And I am so upset because I was told to attend a teaching seminar this weekend and made sure with the institution earlier this summer that I had to attend after giving them all the facts. I made sure because I could have made other plans for the weekend. After emailing them last week about my stay this weekend asking if there was any on-campus housing left, I suddenly got a response saying (FROM THE SAME PERSON) that I did not have to attend the seminar.

WHHHAAAAATTTTTTTTTTHEHHEH FFUKCHGIHEIGKKKKK. And then another email came which has a miserable representation of the reality of my physics prerequisites situation. What on earth. Am I being paid to do this, including the studying, or am I the one paying? And now I have to redo an assignment (after already redoing one before) along with the other two assignments, an assignment already late, and a final project due for the same class, a huge project and quiz due for another class, along with doing whatever I have to do so I can have some goddamn money in my bra. I have no motivation. To transfer or not to transfer, that is the question?

I mean do you know how many Punjabis were originally expecting me to dance this coming weekend at their party and I had to shoot them down. Do you know how disappointed they are? I didn't visit them a year and a half ago like I said I would and after seeing them recently I was told that 'that was so not cool.' In any case now, I have to spend the whole weekend now working on these gifts from heaven. I am going to the gym right now because I am just too angry to work.