aiming to be this peaceful, non-yelling, non-irritated woman who knows her boundaries and wouldn't make a single mistake in her personal life by now and be on her way to be one of the best mediators ever is now I feel unrealistic....it is now the fakest shit I ever heard and even though, I've been stellar at not making assumptions throughout my life, this one mistake cost me a layer of grief. How unnecessary! The only way you can be peaceful and quiet and constipated-looking is if you have tons of money in your bank account and get massages every day like the fucked up Indians in India have and do. And then they have maids and cooks. What the hell do the women do? Get pedicures everyday. And then they look at us (I know I rant about this all the time) who are actually working and who aren't worthless pieces of shit [like them] like we're crazy. Anyhoo, I gotta go today like I do twice a week and tutor on the most uncomfortable chairs for five hours straight for $10 an hour. And am I starting school on Monday or not? Lord knows. How the hell would I know? I haven't seen the University I got accepted to and not up to going today.

I need some money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!