so this last year I came to the epiphany that I will never have a best friend relationship like the one Oprah and Gayle have. I always felt I was Oprah throughout my life but I'm finding that the Gayles change. I actually like it this way. I don't want a best gf and would rather have all my girlfriends equidistant from me, as me in the Center, and all of them circling around me. Cause in any given moment you need all of them and you also don't need any of them. They're all pieces of your heart and you need all of them.

I have decided to go back to my old geisha ways and whatever guy I'm hanging out with that's gonna be my bf.

# feeling much more lighthearted and relieved after talking about my emotions and stresses with my mom. phew.