so there are a few things on my mind. the Capital One credit card, the tuition balance at WCCC (which finally I got a letter about it possibly going to collections..and I got a certificate cause I made the dean's list!!!!), saving rent money for my future office, my credit score (actually I really don't care about this), a medical bill that has been in collections for quite some time, the shitload of work that has to be done and all while hearing my mother's voice in the background to get up earlier in the morning. lord. after getting home at 11:47 last night, I needed a half hour just to calm down (wind down is that what it's called)? of course there's always updates and new things coming up. had to solidify plans about a jewelry show coming up where I'm helping my mom so I have to mark my calendar (this is how I pay my rent). then I was coasting on facebook for a while, making my to do list, took a quick hot shower, couldn't sleep and went to bed after 2am. today I'm upset about the recent cultural appropriation of Holi by the Americans. such an inadequate, brainless, artless thing they're doing by doing these 5k run festivals and whatnot just to make money. lord. and then my mind goes back to the credit card, the tuition, how I'm going to pay for my books for the fall semester coming up (didn't take any classes this summer..decided I needed a break before I begin my two year part-time journey through school again..thank God I got a fun, spunky advisor. he's smart, vivacious, so helpful). anyhoo, one must continue on. and negotiate. otherwise you can't survive life.